
I’ve gone through many opinions about Valentine’s Day. Loved it as a child. Chocolate and shiny red heart-shaped stickers? Sending handmade valentines to my loved ones? What wasn’t to love? In junior high there was nervous anticipation. Would I get a valentine from the person I liked? Or would I get one from someone I would be mercilessly teased about? In high school I so hoped my current boyfriend would remember or that my unrequited love would surprise me with a symbol that they noticed me too. Then I got over Valentine’s Day. It was silly and pointless and commercial. Most of this distaste was simply rebellion and past trauma. But now, I’m happy to say that I’m back to my childhood love of chocolate and red and telling people I love them.
So, when I was asked to read some poems at a pop-up art show on the theme of love last week, I said yes. And it was so much fun! I had a great time, despite my body deciding it was nervous part way through. Those knee-bumping shakes are real. 😝 There’s something about reading poetry up front that feels so much more personal than reading a story aloud. But I’m hoping some practice reading poetry will calm my nervous knees down over time.
With that, here are the four untitled poems I read.
Poem One
We danced on the train tracks two stories above the ground Hugged by the navy midnight Breathing each other and the thick scent of railroad ties Then we sunk to the ground sitting pressed against the trestle wall our fingers still dancing And you told me your dreams until I couldn't stand to do anything but kiss you and become part of them
Poem Two
I thought I'd try you on So I slid into your brand new And asked 'is this me'? The trifold mirror replied Yes! No. Maybe? So I wore you out And you were soft And comfortable But sometimes the tag scratched And then I changed, Again Fittingly, You did too Stretched and worn we parted slowly, unraveling I thought I'd try you on Instead, we broke each other in
Poem Three
I fight love afraid it will win and leave me bereft of skin My raw heart beating blood to nothing but bone and muscle no longer willing to lift itself from this bed and these sheets that still hold your warmth
Poem Four
Ticket my heart because it falls in love too fast again and again with the mountain roads and cross-country drives filled with potato chips and chocolate goodies long conversations and silly jokes and you and you and you
You may recognize that last poem from this month’s February Poetry Adventure. If you want to check out some of my other poems from this month, and the poems of other poetry Adventurers, you can find them in the post I linked above. :)
I hope this season finds you enjoying chocolate and something vibrant and red, letting those you love know they are loved, and knowing that you are loved.
Love you, Petra ❤️
P.S. The days have been full, we’re getting over illnesses, and book things are moving a bit slowly. Hence the delayed newsletters. But I will be sending one out in March. 😀
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The first poem was my favorite!